If you stumbled upon this page, then you’ve been probably spending too much time on the internet. So… maybe try going outside.
If it isn’t a good idea to go outside at this moment (rain, sandstorm, alien invasion, people being there) then feel free to continue looking around this blog. I don’t want to look like bragging but I’m pretty sure that the content you will find here is much more healthy and useful than the majority of the fast-food content you see on the internet nowadays.
I don’t consider myself being some kind of a genius who should spread his knowledge to everyone who simply passes around him but I’m pretty sure I’ve got some interesting views and opinions on things because of my pretty unique combination of interests, hobbies, and past.
Since I remember I was always raised as the smart and gifted kid who will go study university, get his degree, then finds a corporate job, climbs its ladder, and dies and the top of the rat race (not exactly how it was presented but you got the idea).
Most of the time I was alive, I went with the flow and didn’t question much. However, the longer I walked this earth, the more I felt something is missing in my poor existence. I wasn’t able to turn my head around the fact that the main point of my life is to work the job I hate, have a wife I argue with on weekly basis, and on top create a few babies I won’t even see growing up because of my shitty job. And yet, that was exactly what I was served as the only possible future from everyone I spoke to.
Besides this constant existential crisis, I also realized I’m badly addicted to pornography (Like at least twice a day type bad). It took me 6 years to get this demon under control and even to this day, he from time to time shows up in my life, uninvited. Porn and other vices of modern life made me disgusted even more by the life of an average Joe. I needed some escape, some escape that is not porn, or endless scrolling on Instagram.
I found books, or maybe books found me. It all started with typical self-help stuff but after some time they all felt the same, so I had to up my dose, I started to read classics, fiction, and philosophy. That’s when I found out how much I’m obsessed with stories, and how much I want to learn to tell my own stories.
So here I’m, a computer science student who ,on the one side, doesn’t want to leave a mainstream life completely , but at the same time wants to find something better than to die in a rat race.
On these pages, I write about all of this. About philosophy, psychology, wins, struggles, addictions, fuckups, and everything in between.
On these pages, you will find me, learning how to live a better life. Day by day, habit by habit, fuckup by fuckup. And by that—I’m quite sure—you can learn something yourself.
Geniuses learn from other’s mistakes, smart people learn from their own mistakes, and stupid people never learn.
Also I will post here experiments with my own fictional stories. To help you orient here better I split my content into these tabs: Fiction is—obviously—a place where I write my own stories and Essays a place of reflection and sharing life experiences and Blog is for updates about my upcoming book and other personal stuff that don’t really fit into Essays. Feel free to start whenever you want.
Welcome to my world. Welcome to my head…